If you judge people, you have no time to love them.-Mother Theresa Haven't really been blogging much because, well just because. There's so much I really want to say, so much I really want to blog about, so many different emotions that i'm feeling, but I really don't know how to express it all in words. It's so hard, it really is. Just. So. Hard. I never used to feel like this, in the past, whatever I felt, I could just speak my mind, freely, without any restrictions/obstructions. But now? It's a different thing altogether. Kinda feels like constipation, you get me? Like you desperately need an outlet of some sort to just let it all out, but you just can't.
Sometimes I really don't understand myself. As much as I need an outlet to just let everything out, however when there's one available to me, I just restrain, tell myself everything is alright, grit my teeth and suck it all in, like how a strong girl does. How ironic is that right? And even if i decide I want to tell, it's still hard because some things are hard to put in words, hard to make people understand. I wished we could all communicate without the use of words. I mean, we can, through non-verbal actions. But I wished we could all communicate without words and still be able to understand each other perfectly. So hard. Life's so hard, but somehow we've got to deal with it huh since we're all stuck in here together.
Sometimes you need another person to be there for you. On other days you will be in a position to be there for them. Some days it is nice to sit alone and listen. Get to know yourself and develop a beautiful relationship with the person inside.-paulocoelhoblog.comThat's exactly what I've been doing this past few days. It was pointless, such a waste of time and totally unproductive. Could have spent the time doing other things like schoolwork and all that shizzles instead of just moping around like a sad fuck.
Oh well that aside, "study" session on friday ended up in an impromptu l4d session which made me swear never to play it with justin and ken ever again. I bet delly feels the exact same way right? It was so frustrating that we were this close to flaring up haha. After that, we hurriedly shooed them up the bus and then headed to walk about our own despite it being ten and most shops were closed. Mean, but it's all for their own good. I never really liked lying but we just had to lie there and then, plus it was a different thing altogether. Nevertheless, we got our retribution because of the uneasy feeling we felt when we were walking down orchard road, every 5 seconds turning back to see if they were following us. It sucks to feel that way even in somewhere as safe as Singapore.
Shall blog again soon, now that I've said so much, feel like I've got much more to say but ... this post is already quite wordy so I'll save it for a later date byebye!
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