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Finally, the week's coming to an end. Tomorrow's a public holiday so I'm really anticipating a reaaallly reallllyyy reallllyyyyy long weekend :> Thank God week 6 is finally over because it's been a helluva week I swear, with all the killer deadlines and all. But oh well, am just glad and relieved all of us made it through alive and kicking. Happy that next week is relatively free of deadlines or any other obligations. Gives me ample time to catch up on my sleep. But certainly not looking forward to week 8 - deadlines all over again.

Life is so bleak, so full of deadlines sometimes I feel like I'm a zombie, a robot, who does things because I have to, and not because I want to or even like to. I'm not even anticipating the christmas holidays that much because, it practically isn't even considered a holiday! Seriously, what was I thinking when I signed up for Mass Comm? Definitely not this. Plus, I'm still very bitter over the very fact that I won't be travelling this holidays, argh makes my heart ache when I think about it ...

School and holidays aside, the weather has been really unpredictable. One minute it'll be pouring and flooding the entire school compound (like last thurs), the next minute the sun would be shining so brightly (like today). Really hate the weather in stinkapore, it's always on the two extreme ends and never in the middle. Went to school today to hand in FA1, and came back home to bathe before heading downtown. The minute I stepped out of home, started to feeling sticky again, definitely not a good feeling I must say.

Oh on a side note, I really really really really want to go for kitty lab!! Okay, time to go watch Glee/Vampire Diaries/ 90210 ... bye.

Hello it's sunday again, the end of the week. Tomorrow's monday and I just realised I haven't done anything much during the (long) weekend that i had. So not good. The flu bug hit me on tuesday, and till now, i don't think it has any thoughts of leaving me just yet. Argh, so frustrating because half the time I'll be blowing my guts out plus my voice is really really nasal. Furthermore, this week isn't really the week to fall sick, what with all the deadlines due argh so stressed!! Not worried for most of the modules, just really really really worried for webd seriously don't know where to start, how to start, what to start on argh frustrating x 1000000!!

Just came back from lunch from manis manis at turf city, was supposed to go ahyat for dimsum but they close at 2.30 so argh, was v sad because I was really looking forward to dimsumzzzzzz. Oh well, not like I'm affected or anything cause really, i'm so used to disappointments already! First japan trip, then taiwan trip, then bkk trip sigh maybe for this holidays, am really not fated to fly/escape. But nevertheless, i'm keeping my fingers crossed for any last minute/impromptu trips cause my family's so good at those! :>

In a nutshell, this week has been relatively alright (in terms of school-days), didn't meet K&J this week (&probably next) so it's really a relief. Honestly, meeting up with them twice a week together with delly is really a burden! I feel really mean for saying that, but it's true. So tiring, troublesome and burdensome that the both of us have to resort to lies. Don't really feel good about lying but argh, this is one of the times where I've got to let go out my guilty conscience ... right del? Plus, i'm really busy so that part's not really a lie right? Still luvvvvu delly! :>

XLBs for lunch on monday with SS, XLBs on wednesday for dinner with delly, pasta cafe with ryan on fri followed by drinks with SS, and then airport yesterday w family & delly to send dad off to Holland, and then agnes and family came to find us for a little while.

So I guess I better go start on my work soonzzzzz, comm issues due, feature writing article due, webd due, radio due argh due due due due due due ... byebye!

Oh oh oh and it's mere's birthday tomorrow so, HAPPY EARLY 19TH BIRTHDAY MEREEEEE! :> luvvvvu! :>

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
-Mother Theresa

Haven't really been blogging much because, well just because. There's so much I really want to say, so much I really want to blog about, so many different emotions that i'm feeling, but I really don't know how to express it all in words. It's so hard, it really is. Just. So. Hard. I never used to feel like this, in the past, whatever I felt, I could just speak my mind, freely, without any restrictions/obstructions. But now? It's a different thing altogether. Kinda feels like constipation, you get me? Like you desperately need an outlet of some sort to just let it all out, but you just can't.

Sometimes I really don't understand myself. As much as I need an outlet to just let everything out, however when there's one available to me, I just restrain, tell myself everything is alright, grit my teeth and suck it all in, like how a strong girl does. How ironic is that right? And even if i decide I want to tell, it's still hard because some things are hard to put in words, hard to make people understand. I wished we could all communicate without the use of words. I mean, we can, through non-verbal actions. But I wished we could all communicate without words and still be able to understand each other perfectly. So hard. Life's so hard, but somehow we've got to deal with it huh since we're all stuck in here together.

Sometimes you need another person to be there for you. On other days you will be in a position to be there for them. Some days it is nice to sit alone and listen. Get to know yourself and develop a beautiful relationship with the person inside.
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That's exactly what I've been doing this past few days. It was pointless, such a waste of time and totally unproductive. Could have spent the time doing other things like schoolwork and all that shizzles instead of just moping around like a sad fuck.

Oh well that aside, "study" session on friday ended up in an impromptu l4d session which made me swear never to play it with justin and ken ever again. I bet delly feels the exact same way right? It was so frustrating that we were this close to flaring up haha. After that, we hurriedly shooed them up the bus and then headed to walk about our own despite it being ten and most shops were closed. Mean, but it's all for their own good. I never really liked lying but we just had to lie there and then, plus it was a different thing altogether. Nevertheless, we got our retribution because of the uneasy feeling we felt when we were walking down orchard road, every 5 seconds turning back to see if they were following us. It sucks to feel that way even in somewhere as safe as Singapore.

Shall blog again soon, now that I've said so much, feel like I've got much more to say but ... this post is already quite wordy so I'll save it for a later date byebye!

Bestest girlfriends ever! Although it was quite "fail", and didn't go exactly as planned,  I was still pleasantly surprised by my girls! :> Love you girls x100000, see you on tuesday!

So yeah when they came I was in my pajamas, with my specs and all and quite gross so yeah, no judging!! Chilled out a little while in my room before mere left to meet jerome and adele and my family and i went to greatworld for kushinbo bong bong bong crabs crabs crabs almost died of overeating i swearrrr but it was really really really really good! :> Dad drove us around mohammed sultan road and zouk area and demsey to look at halloween costumes and all :> After that del and i went for drinks at hollandv  ... what else what else ... okay end of blog post 7am tomorrow sighzzzzzzzzzz.

This week has been quite relaxing but I don't think this honeymoon period will last. The next few weeks will get worse, worse and worse. What's new huh. Enjoy while I can I guess. Been getting really bored easily nowadays, can't seem to find anything online (or offline) that's intriguing and fascinating, just something that can at least keep me occupied for a few hours. But no, zilch, nothing. Eobseoyo.

Many many many things piling up on the to-do list. If dad's not in Singapore I think I might just spend the entire weekend this week completing the assignments instead of going out. But if he's in Singapore, I think we're going ... to some island for some hiking groan x 100000 but shall make an exception to wake up earlier on Sunday since it's his birthday. And if he's in Singapore I hope we go to someplace nice for dinner in the night, it's been ages since we've been to a nice restaurant.

Had driving on monday after school, learnt parallel parking which is fucking frustrating I swear argh x10000 I already have problems reverse parking what more parallel parking. Cuscaden with SS and his friends on tuesday after school. National library with Justin, Del and Ken yesterday after school. In the end we didn't really study/do work because Del was playing with Ken's iTouch at the other table and Justin was fiddling with my mac. I don't really like to be home late on school nights but oh well, can't be helped. Stayed at home the whole of today and tried to finish webd but it's still halfway done. I really want to finish it by this weeeeeek !!! TGIF tomorrow yay somehow I'm not dreading school next week ... surprisingly cause I'm always whining and complaining and school. Can't wait for weekends/next week/next weekends. :>


If we discovered that we have only five minutes left to say all that we wanted to say, every telephone booth would be occupied by people calling other people to stammer that they loved them. - Christopher Morley